I’ve decided to delete some old posts so today I’m adding something new. I’ve always loved the sound of the wind. I’ve always loved the way it makes me feel.

Today as I sit in my study, I feel at peace with myself and the world. I’ve been spending several months now in AA and am learning a lot. There’s something about listening to people be honest with themselves. Something happens. It’s not a place for everyone, but it is a place for me right now.

I don’t lie anymore. Not to myself. Not to others. Once I allowed my lies to be something of a joke. “All women lie” became one of the slogans of my former life. “All women are crazy,” was another. Those were the biggest lies I allowed myself to live with. When we let ourselves believe them, we perpetuate the myth. We buy into it. We become part of it. I’m not crazy and I never was. I can be a pain in the ass, and for a long time my temper was out of control  No doubt about that. But that’s different from crazy.

Today I’m not looking toward the future and I’m not regretting the past. For today, I’ll stay in this moment with this life. With this peace of mind.